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Vampire
04:48
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I'll never be a real man
Until I go live on a farm
Until them I am a leech
Its selfish and it's wrong
But money controls everything I do
I cant afford to eat at chipotle but
I still eat at chipotle anyway
And I'll never be loved by you until I learn how to grow up
My actions can get so petty
It makes me want to throw up
I am afraid of everyone I see
If I ever hear laughter I assume it is directed at me
I wish i was a vampire but I'm only a human
So fuck you god for having me see my own reflection
I'm laying in my bed when i should be in a coffin
And I just want to cry blood
And you shouldn't believe anything
That I say to you
Because I have all these convictions
But really none of them are true.
Because when push comes to shove I am just a little boy
I'll keep my mouth silent i'll do things that I don't enjoy
I am a shell of the person I portray
Faking every interaction i have I'm acting everyday
I'll isolate myself I'll hide myself away
I'm the only one awake at night
I'll sleep all fucking day
I wish i was a vampire but I'm only a human
So fuck you god for having me see my own reflection
I'm laying in my bed when i should be in a coffin
And I just want to cry blood
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Dragons Forever
03:44
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They say to live in the moment is the key
Well this moment fucking sucks
And i understand that it will pass
But does it have to suck so much
I want to take a time machine to nowhere
I want to take a time machine to nowhere
The train is packed at 8am
And I'm running late again
And there are so many pretty people so close to me
And I look at my reflection and don't like what i see
I wish I wasn't born in this body but wishing doesn't solve anything
No wishing doesn't solve anything
I'm drinking coffee on the street
And I'm staring at my feet
Paralyzed in fear of the people i will see
I wonder if they like me,
I hope that they like
They don't like me why would they anyway
Why would they like me anyway
And its 4 in the morning once again
And i cant calm down all these thoughts inside my head
And if time is a construct
Well what a shitty construct
I'll be constantly anxious 'till I'm dead
I wont be anxious when I'm dead
And heather called me on the phone
Said she was worried about my soul
Her pastor told her
That hell is eternal
And that's where all nonbeleivers go
Well heather
Hell is isnt real and neither am i
Hell isnt real and neither am i
Hel isnt real and neither am i
And sid vicous was only 21 when he died
And that really freaked me out sometimes
But lately I've been thinking that maybe
He wasnt that great of a guy
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Everything Is Fine
03:36
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I've been having dreams about, the day you're gonna die
and how i would not react to the news
and when they'd burried you they'd, forget about your cat
and it would starve and die too.
but when i wake up i try not to think about all that weird stuff, and
just get through the day
but when i go to bed at night i cant help but be chased
by a hoard of flesh eating zombies that already got nathan
and i cant eat
and i cant sleep
and very soon i will loose the ability to breathe
when i hear someone laughing on the middle of the street
i automatically assume that they are laughing at me
ive been watching too much tv and too many movies
and now i cannot seperate fiction, from reality
im fuckin terrified by the things i'l see, when i go to sleep
so i guess il just stay up for a while
i saw a movie where a Japanese school girls head exploded
after it got run over by a train
and when i saw it i just kind of chuckled
i am no longer a human being
and kurt cobain put a gun to his mouth and blew his face off in the greenhouse outback
and elliot smith stabbed himself twice in the mother fucking chest
and its hard not to wonder what was going through his head, to feel a knife pierce through your heart and go, i want to do that again.
They werent kidding
they werent kidding
and sometimes im afraid that im not kidding
either
aw who am i kidding, everything is fine.
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"2015" or "Hoverboard"
00:26
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every stupid song i write sounds the same
I’m horribly horrible at everything i feel so bad for my friends and family
for dealing with all this bullshit i excrete
and i just want to go home but i don’t even know what home
means anymore
my head keeps spinning my head keeps racing i keep anything straight anymore
oh oh oh
and i want to drive away but i do not know how to drive
and i don’t want to live anymore but i sure as shit don’t want to die
and i totally understand how my friends can turn to herion
and i don’t want to but i am afraid that soon i will join them
and i think that i should just go and work on a farm
but i have all these stupid dreams
bubbling deep inside of me
i want to make music i want to make movies
but i just don’t want to
i just don’t want to
deal with all the bullshit in between
and I’m afraid that I’m turning into an alcoholic
im afraid I’m becoming a drug addict
im afraid that I’ve damaged my body too much
im afraid that i can’t stop
i cannot stop i cannot stop
i cannot stop
i cannot stop i cannot stop
stop looking at me like that, i know I’ve gotten pretty fat
but do you want to say it out loud like that, like that, like that ,like that
the ice cream bar won’t make me feel better but il give it a shot away
and the booze won’t make me feel better, but il take, the shot anyway
and i know a gun is not the answer, but a shot sounds pretty good wouldn’t you say
wouldn’t you say
wouldn’y you say
and i find myself constantly wishing that i was not a human being
and i find myself constantly ashamed, of all the things that i am feeling
and i find myself constantly on the verge of destroying everthing
and I am pretty certain that I do not want to i just wish i was not born to this species
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Hello, how are you
I swear I am not trying to make you uncomfortable
but I just have a few things on my mind
I hope you're okay
I hope you're alright
How was Europe, did you have a good time
I saw some pictures, I didn't mean to,
okay thats not true but you looked really good.
Do you remember in september I am on the phone while you're
lying on the floor and in retrospect on the other end I must have seemed like such a chore,
well hey yo,
im sorry
things got fucked up please forgive me
im not sad i just dont know, how to reconnect
well hey yo,
please hear me,
if i was a dick i am very sorry
you were my best friend, and now i realize that shit also sucked on your end.
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